Day 5

Thursday was not a good day for me!!! It was a day that made me doubt myself and my ability to work out the way I need to.

Diet wise, I did great!!! I had a ham and cheese omelet for breakfast, a cheese stick for my morning snack and for lunch I had a lettuce wrap with ham and dill pickles. I also had 2 hard boiled eggs (I only ate the white), Lima beans and a bottle of water. I was really proud of my lunch because I actually made it the night before because I had to watch Logan at Jenny's house that day. Normally I would have made Logan’s lunch and ate whatever he was, normally that’s a cheese burger or chicken nuggets --- not SBD approved!!! For my afternoon snack, I had about 30 pistachio nuts and a bottle of water. Dinner time rolled around and I was on the go. My Dad's church softball season had its first game and I try to not miss any games so of course I was going. But what was I going to do for lunch??? I stopped at burger king and had the most amazing char grilled chicken Cesar Salad and a bottle of water. Yummy!!!! On my way home, I munched on some sunflower seeds, had my windows down, blaring the country music! Love it!!

When I got home, it was pretty late but one of my usual TV shows was on so my Dad and I waited until that was over to start our work out. By this time, its 10:15pm and both of us were tired but we didn’t want to skip our workout so we popped in the Yoga DVD and started the workout... it went downhill from there. I learned in the first 5 minutes that 1) I am NOT flexible 2) my wrists do not support my weight and 3) I am way to FAT to do Yoga. Talk about a pity party! Man I sat on the couch, watched the video and after about 10 minutes of watching it with my jaw dropping in awe of these people flexibility, I ran to the bathroom and did what any grown woman would do... I cried! I heard my dad turn off the DVD about 5 minutes later, which upset me all over again because I knew he has quit because I had... GUILT! I leave the bathroom, walk into my bedroom, plop down in the middle of my bad and start throwing one major pity party for myself! I was so disappointed in myself! Disappointed that I hadn’t tried harder in Yoga. Disappointed that I had let me dad down. Disappointed that I had allowed myself to get so fat over the past few years. Like I said, major pity party!! My dad then knocks on my door and suggests that we just do the stretching DVD so at least we do something. By this time, it’s close to 10:45 and we are both tired but I knew if I skipped another night, I wouldn’t keep going. I would just give up! So we start the stretching DVD with my sniffling and trying to get myself together and the first stretch is... yup, you guessed it, a Yoga pose! You have got to be kidding me!!! But I pushed trough and it ended up being a great stretching session. At one point, we were doing one of these really strange poses where you are laying on your back and you kick your legs all the way up to the point where you are just on your head and shoulders and your back is being supported by your hands. Well, my dad was able to do it, but I sure wasn’t!! So I am trying and trying to get enough momentum to get my legs up that high when I get a major case of the giggles! My dad looks over, seeing me attempting to get my legs up, he gets laughing and we end up just sitting on the floor killing ourselves laughing during that stretch!!!

Crazy right?!

Once I we finished the stretching DVD, I felt better. I was glad that I didn’t just give up and not try to at least do something!!! Even if it wasn’t what I was supposed to do. I ended my night, sitting in bed, eating some celery with peanut butter and started this blog. 

I'm so thankful to be doing this journey with my dad, he keeps me going, he encourages me, and he pushes me when he knows I can do better!! If I had to do this thing alone, I probably would have given up by now. I'm also thankful for encouraging friends who always have a kind word to say when I am discouraged!

One day at a time...