Tuesday, 5/15

Okay so today is one of those frustrating days!!! This morning when I woke up, I decided that I wanted to start Phase 2 of the SBD because Phase 1 and I just were not getting along! Well in this Phase, I am doing it until I get down to my goal weight. So basically I’ll be on this for the rest of my life. Ha-Ha okay not really but it kinda feels that way. On this phase, I am able to start reintroducing carbs and fruits (wohoo!!)

I didn’t have anything to eat until about 12:30 today and when I did eat, I had a bowl of LIFE cereal with my fat free milk so that was a nice little treat seeing how I hadn’t had and cereal in about 2 weeks. Then there really wasn’t anything else in the house so I munched on so dry roasted peanuts and had a bottle of water. Tonight, I made a FANTASTIC dinner! Grilled chicken with bbq sauce, peas with some melted "I can't believe it’s not butter", French green beams with fat back, Mac-n-cheese and brown rice. Okay so I had a tiny spoonful of green beans but I didn’t touch the Mac-n-cheese. The brown rice and the peas I was allowed to have half a cup (which I did) and my plate was surprisingly very full! I finished dinner and felt full and satisfied. **Happy Dance**

Tonight I had planned on finally working out considering it has been almost a week but my body had other plans. I have bad feet. Like really bad feet--- 2 surgeries each foot and they still are not fixed! Well, after cleaning the kitchen, making dinner and then re-cleaning the kitchen, my feet are really really bothering me. Plus with the rain that is coming in tonight, that makes them extra achy so unfortunately there is no way that I could handle working out. As I am sitting here typing this, my dad is out in the living room doing his workout and I am feeling sorry for myself. I am also feeling guilty for not working out. But I have to remind myself that I cannot control my pain and I cannot control that after 4 total surgeries that my feet are still not fixed! I cannot let this discourage me! Tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start. I am still determined to lose this weight. I may not lose it as quickly as I want to and I may not be skinny by the end of the summer, but I will reach my goal one day! And when that happens, I will be doing the happy dance and shouting so loud that my sister-in-law in Colorado will hear me!! :-)

One day at a time...